It was my Mother
who taught me to ski.
Where I grew up,
learning to ski
was part of the cultural programming --
more fun than ice skating,
more folly than ice fishing.
I also learned to obey authority
and that hugs are only for
special occasions.
And why the hell did I learn
to feel unworthy of amazing women?
For what would that be perfect?
Culture codes us with big pixels,
makes for rough edges.
But that was then.
Initialization.
Love acts weird
when bugged with fear.
So how do we learn to love?
Is it innate? Beaten out of us?
Is it promoted? Like profit?
More like buried,
like treasure.
Today I am homeward,
riding a gondola
down a mountain
full of secrets.
On the
banquet beer shoulders
of a nearby peak
the sunset shines a
rosy glee.
Castoff feathers of spindrift fly,
like angelic epaulets
fourteen thousand feet
high.
Who's there?
Is that you?
A greeting from up above?
Downward I glide,
grinning,
digging,
learning to love.
-- Kirk Merlin