Recent Thoughts

November 13, 2018

Step Inside

This one just came to me in about 10 seconds while I was watching my tea steep yesterday morning. Normally I’m impatient with my tea and wriggle the bag around to try to speed up the steeping process. But yesterday I just stared at it for about 90 seconds as the water slowly changed colors to the shade I like. It was really quite beautiful to watch. And while I was watching it, an energetic surge expressed itself as tears of gratitude and these words came to me rapidly. So I wrote them down and share them here. It’s happening! It’s happening! The mud before the blossoming. Like ancient tales of lotus told The muck is thick before the gold. Awake! Awake! There’s much at stake Just step inside Out of the cold. Honestly, I don’t know how much I dig this one. It feels a little direct for me, artistically speaking. But I share it here for the sake of honest expression and to tell the story of how it happened. This never used to happen to me. I was logical. Math major. I feel like I understand it a bit now how songwriters or artists sometimes have inspiration come to them. It’s begun to happen to me in the last year, and I believe is directly connected to both my meditation practice and use of cannabis.
November 12, 2018

Morning Prayer

To the goddesses tea and cannabis,
the women I spend each morning with
thank you for this moment of bliss.

–Kirk Merlin

About Kirk

KirkMerlinAhlberg

I am Kirk Merlin Ahlberg, son of Richard Paul and Marilyn Husby Ahlberg. Grandson of Pearl and Oscar Husby, Eunice and Merlin Ahlberg. Great-grandson of Alfred & Mary Ahlberg, Iver & Ella Iverson, Ole & Mary Husaby, Alfred & Clara Loken. My ancestors came to the USA from Norway and Sweden around the year 1900 AD.

I was born into the suburbs of Minneapolis, MN where I was circumcised and programmed by corporate radio & television, sugared cereal, one-size-fits-all government controlled education, and the polarizing us vs. them tribal worship of regional sports teams.

Since 2015 I have been consciously debugging my own cultural and familial programming, trying to find the real Me that got burdened from birth by conformity and fear.

These are some of my thoughts.

 

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