Recent Thoughts

June 8, 2018

Day in the Life

(1)

This morning I listen

as a friend at the local cafe

tells me about his son

who graduates high school next year.

He is keen on languages and wants to travel abroad.

 

My friend never had the opportunity to travel.

He shares some struggles with me,

refilling my coffee

as he paddles the whitewater of fatherhood

the best he can,

as all fathers do.

 

Back home,

I sit in meditation for thirty minutes

then chill on the futon for another sixty

listening to a wise teacher on the computer

who helps me understand

how I can be a more loving, understanding, compassionate person.

 

Today is a victory by mid-morning.

 

(2)

In front of the old elementary school,

there’s a broken fence at the community garden.

It’s one of those sturdy three-story brick schools

in the heart of community

that you don’t see much anymore.

The old windows look over the sprouting greenery

to a Baptist church across the street.

Probably costs a fortune to heat the place in January.

 

Now it houses some small non-profits and

a tax accountant on the second floor.

Half of the garden is used by children

who attend the new school

down by the river

(and who seem to be getting a late start on planting this year).

The other half is nurtured by neighbors.

 

Fixing the fence will be simple.

I’ll just walk 10 blocks to the hardware store —

passing through the park to greet

the rising river and the nesting ospreys,

past the pond where the ducks and geese

cruise down low,

extend their landing gear,

and splooshingly glide to a floating rest —

and buy some sixteen penny nails.

 

I’m fixing the fence because

I broke it.

 

Last week I leaned lightly against it after planting some peas

and the top rail just fell off

like it had been wriggling it’s way free for months

waiting for the right moment to jump, and,

under cover of darkness

scamper back to its family in the forest.

 

Alas, I am its captor with a hammer,

pounding confidently into its soft weathered flesh

without worry of bending nails and feeling like a knob.

 

(3)

Later in the day

I listen to another friend who is in a similar place as me —

unemployed, searching, awake & unsure.

She has lots of balls in the air

and is not a trained juggler.

We’ve all been there.

 

Then I was back here,

at home on the front stoop,

enjoying the evening sun and

finishing a book and a beer.

 

(4)

Listen to neighbors.

Interact with nature.

Grow as a human.

 

It was a good day.

April 21, 2018

Learning to Listen

Ultimately,

we are all just learning to listen.

 

The machinations of the world

are but distractions

from hearing the notes of the soul.

 

When we listen to our soul

we can’t help but unearth

boundless love

for all beings.

 

Listen and see.

About Kirk

KirkMerlinAhlberg

I am Kirk Merlin Ahlberg, son of Richard Paul and Marilyn Husby Ahlberg. Grandson of Pearl and Oscar Husby, Eunice and Merlin Ahlberg. Great-grandson of Alfred & Mary Ahlberg, Iver & Ella Iverson, Ole & Mary Husaby, Alfred & Clara Loken. My ancestors came to the USA from Norway and Sweden around the year 1900 AD.

I was born into the suburbs of Minneapolis, MN where I was circumcised and programmed by corporate radio & television, sugared cereal, one-size-fits-all government controlled education, and the polarizing us vs. them tribal worship of regional sports teams.

Since 2015 I have been consciously debugging my own cultural and familial programming, trying to find the real Me that got burdened from birth by conformity and fear.

These are some of my thoughts.

 

Recommended Teachers

THC is  Greg Carlwood’s interview-based podcast exploring unconventional, suppressed, & esoteric topics with the brightest minds for our troubled times.

Danica Patrick likes going deep on important human topics with a variety of wise beautiful guests.

Ever felt the truth is stranger than fiction? Or that the coincidences stack far too high to be measured up to chance? Sam Tripoli does. Enter the forbidden realm full of intrigue, mystery, and unexplained events. in conversation with the world’s most controversial researchers, conspiracy theorists and innovative minds.

Joe Rogan uses tremendous compassion, intelligence & humor to examine the most important issues of our day.

Duncan Trussell is a stand-up comedian and also a visionary explorer of humanity, love and the divine. He'll expand your ideas of the potential of everything with his deep understanding and comic questioning. 

Sean & Cass at Church of Chill are a beautiful partnership who are lovingly exploring their inner and outer worlds. I'm regularly blown away by the wise and thoughtful insights shared by them and their guests in intimate conversation on their podcast. Check out their films too.

On Rick Archer's podcast, Buddha at the Gas Pump, he has interviewed hundreds of normal people who have experienced a profound spiritual awakening, shifting to a greater state of consciousness. They may be the person next to you at the gas pump with a smile on their face.

Chris Ryan is a wise world-traveler and author of the book Sex at Dawn. His podcast interviews are fascinating and get a little tangential, but always in an enlightening way. Filled with fantastic stories and thoughtful advice.

Douglas Rushkoff shares a wise, community-based and humanistic outlook on where we should go from here.

Ram Dass is the legendary former Harvard professor Richard Alpert who was among the first westerners to use psychedelics and travel to India to learn from a true guru. This podcast is a collection of many of the hundreds of dharma talks he's given since 1969 when he returned from his first trip to India.

Blueprints for Self-Actualization

This book found me at the Denver airport after I missed a flight that I literally tried to catch by running. Jamie Sans shares a beautiful road map to living from a Native American tradition.

Stumbled upon this one at the library. Nanice shares a beautiful step-by-step guide to how humans operate best when coming into alignment with their loving souls. Become aware of your cultural programming and rise above it.  

To me, this is a classic on finding personal freedome. I heard about it in the early days of podcasting when I was tuning into the digital nomad lifestyle. Harry Browne was a Libertarian presidential candidate and provides a beautiful blueprint of how to take responsibility for and love ourselves.

"We must be the change we wish to see in the world."

- Mahatma Gandhi